Wow, it's been awhile...
A real long while.
I know this isn't our agreement.
I know I haven't been playing my part nor fulfilling my promise.
Now I don't even know if I should start with an apology or with gratitude
I guess I would go with thankful-apologies.
So for the past couple of weeks, I have been doing anyhow. Just waking up and getting on with the day. Living my life like nothing dey happen. Taking each day just as it is and generally forgetting who I am.
Am suppose to be your child. I know You didn't forget that, but I definitely did. Forgot to reference You. Forgot to thank You. Forgot to talk with You. Morning prayers were done either in the car or at work. It seems I have forgotten who gave me the car, or who got me the job.
Seems I have exhorted these things above the one who made them possible in the first place.
Oh am running late for work, I can't kneel down and pray now. Or I have too many things on my mind, referencing God isn't even in the top 100. Wow this is the same God I was crying and wailing to some weeks back. Making promises and all. He's fixed it now and I can't remember to say a simple thank you anymore. Wow...
You really are God and not a man. Am sure I wouldn't be able to try these nonsense with You, if You were human. Guess that's why You are God. Funny thing is despite all these, You remained God. Never changing. Never failing. Ever present. Always helping. Protecting from evil, making ways, moving mountains, solving problems, fixing issues and creating new doors. Yet am busy doing anyhow. Despite these all, I still forget to say a simple thank You.
Honestly I cannot understand why You haven't given up and walked away. Why You would still be looking out for a total ingrate. This is probably one of those things that buttress the phrase.. ."My ways are not your ways".
Today, I didn't have a near accident nor did I witness anything that caused a sober reflection. I guess You just reminded me and in the most gentle of ways.
I didn't ask You to grant me journey mercies today, but You did. I didn't ask You to shower me with favour, You did anyway. Didn't ask for forgiveness, yet You looked past my sins and loved me anyway. Didn't even remember to thank you for the new month, still You have taken me past 19 days in it.
Dear Lord I am indeed thankful for this unmerited grace and I am sorry for taking it for granted.
olasupoAjayi
A real long while.
I know this isn't our agreement.
I know I haven't been playing my part nor fulfilling my promise.
Now I don't even know if I should start with an apology or with gratitude
I guess I would go with thankful-apologies.
So for the past couple of weeks, I have been doing anyhow. Just waking up and getting on with the day. Living my life like nothing dey happen. Taking each day just as it is and generally forgetting who I am.
Am suppose to be your child. I know You didn't forget that, but I definitely did. Forgot to reference You. Forgot to thank You. Forgot to talk with You. Morning prayers were done either in the car or at work. It seems I have forgotten who gave me the car, or who got me the job.
Seems I have exhorted these things above the one who made them possible in the first place.
Oh am running late for work, I can't kneel down and pray now. Or I have too many things on my mind, referencing God isn't even in the top 100. Wow this is the same God I was crying and wailing to some weeks back. Making promises and all. He's fixed it now and I can't remember to say a simple thank you anymore. Wow...
You really are God and not a man. Am sure I wouldn't be able to try these nonsense with You, if You were human. Guess that's why You are God. Funny thing is despite all these, You remained God. Never changing. Never failing. Ever present. Always helping. Protecting from evil, making ways, moving mountains, solving problems, fixing issues and creating new doors. Yet am busy doing anyhow. Despite these all, I still forget to say a simple thank You.
Honestly I cannot understand why You haven't given up and walked away. Why You would still be looking out for a total ingrate. This is probably one of those things that buttress the phrase.. ."My ways are not your ways".
Today, I didn't have a near accident nor did I witness anything that caused a sober reflection. I guess You just reminded me and in the most gentle of ways.
I didn't ask You to grant me journey mercies today, but You did. I didn't ask You to shower me with favour, You did anyway. Didn't ask for forgiveness, yet You looked past my sins and loved me anyway. Didn't even remember to thank you for the new month, still You have taken me past 19 days in it.
Dear Lord I am indeed thankful for this unmerited grace and I am sorry for taking it for granted.
olasupoAjayi
