Hmm… I guess that was his umph-teenth
deep breathe. One would not particularly say he was sad nor can one describe his
expression as that of a happy person. I guess I would say he was “just there”.
As I sit there looking at him, a
lot of things crossed my mind. I have been through a lot with this dude. It’s
been how many years now – four? Five? Six? Does it even matter? It’s been a
long time. I have had his back. Been his friend, supported him, trusted him, and
believed in him and his dreams. Yet he has repeatedly pushed me away. What
haven’t I done for this guy? Through the ups and downs, the tough and the good
times. We have quarrelled too many times to even count. I have called it quit
many times, repeatedly told myself – “no more” or “this is the last time”, yet
here I am sitting in front of this guy again. What is it about this guy sef? He
is not particularly a fine boy, nor is he the son of a billionaire, he is just
a regular dude. But there is just something about him that just keeps bringing
me back and drawing me closer. To imagine that we just quarrelled again and we
are not in speaking terms. So I really wonder why I am still friends with him.
This guy? Well we met in school,
a couple of years back. I really can’t remember for certain how we became
friends. I do not even remember giving him my contact details, but am certain
he now has all my details and even my siblings’. I guess he is just one of
those people you grow into. Well truth be told, he is a nice guy. Very caring
and selfless but his nature can be likened to an oxymoron. One minute he is all
sweet and lovely, the next he is the most annoying person in the world. He is
the perfect listener and one you want to call during those down moments, other
times he is so annoying, that you wish you could just slap him across the
check. He cares for me so very much but also hurts me way too often. Honestly I
do not know if I can call him my friend or enemy – maybe a frenemy – yeah that’s
it - frenemy!
I totally hate you this guy. Do
you know I blocked you on all platforms despite never meeting you until now? You
are so annoying, petty and obnoxious. Ghaad you is so annoying. To be honest
though for those few days I knew you, you did make me laugh and I really felt
completely comfortable with you. I mean there were times I laughed so hard my
tummy ached and other times you made me want to smack my phone on the wall from
the rubbish you said to me. I did not like the pattern, could not take the roller-coaster
ride besides it’s had only been one week and could not be having those kind of
headaches - so blocked and deleted you - sorry!
He has made me cry so many times,
disappointed me a lot more times. I honestly think he just does not know what
he wants. I would have tagged him one of those unserious good for nothing time
wasters, but he is serious. Perhaps too serious. He wants me to keep waiting,
he wants to study more. I think he believes a person can earn a living from books
and studying alone. I just don’t know right now.
Well we have known each other from
way back. Probably from secondary school. He has always been there. That dude
you know has always got your back. Yeah he has his issues. I think he could
work on his patience though. He often puts up this angry / stay away look but
next thing that comes out of his mouth is a joke. If you really do not know him
you would definitely be misinterpreting his countenance and would miss out on a
great guy.
He is my friend, and a very good
boy. Take it from me, he is a good boy – his mother did a good job bringing him
up. I am a lady, I have tested him – more than once and he passed repeatedly.
Or maybe he is just pretending, but if he is, then he is a damn good pretender.
He is hardworking, very
hardworking but I am not sure if he is only doing these work for a subtle
hidden reason. He has always had my back and seems eager to help with my work. I
really thought he was into me at some point but then I realized he just doesn’t
seem to know how to say no. Everyone wants to be paired with him, because they all
know he would do all the work yet say it was team effort. He is a great guy but
I really think there is more to him than he is letting out.
I have known him for the longest
time and I know he gets annoyed easily. Funny it’s not those explosive, damage
everything kind of anger but those ones that are just unneeded. You would ask
yourself, so what is making this boy angry now? Why is he so childish? He needs
to learn to ask himself if whatever is annoying him would matter in the next
five minutes. He is also somewhat impatient and rash. Always wants to reply or
respond immediately. Son, you could do with a little more patience. Believe me
just taking a few seconds to reconsider would go a long way. You also need to
stop taking words personally. Let them go, stop over-processing, some of these
things are just casual discussions that really shouldn’t matter.
Birthday wishes… as another year
rolls by.
